I'm having a hard time.

Father dying, pregnant wife, pending legal action, challenging new job.

Father dying is tough. I feel like I am fighting a losing battle against leukemia. When it's not even my battle. My father is fighting an illness I don't understand.
I have to trust that his Doctors are doing the right thing. That's tough.

Pregnant wife, I'm not ready to raise a child. I make so many bad decisions, how can I inspire my child to make the right ones. That's tough.

I got arrested for a DUI. Not a huge deal. No one was hurt and worst case, I can't drive for a while. I'll hire an overpriced attorney who will most likely get the charge reduced. However it will come at quite a cost and causes a huge financial burden all things considering. That's tough.

The new job. I love it. I am in management now. Compared to my previous job where I had a task to complete, I completed that task, and knew I had done a good job. Currently,  I have no way to measure my success now. How well I am doing is 100% reliant on how well others do their jobs. That's tough.

I'm doing my best not to fall apart.