Hey so i havn't really been on here in the past couple weeks..but all my friends left again for college so here i am, bored as usual.

So saturday night I left to visite this guy keith..i don't know if any of you remember my last blogs but it's that same guy. He goes to IUP so it's about a 3 1/2 hour drive. I'm not really telling the story of my weekend but long story short i couldn't drive the whole way up to his house because the roads were bad and i drive a rear-wheel-drive car. So i parked it in a parking lot and it got stuck. Keith had to come and get me and we stayed in a hotel in hopes that the wheather was better and the roads were clear in the morning. They weren't but we got my car unstuck anyways. The rest of the weekend went by without incident.

So what i'm telling a story about is the fact that my mother thought she was doing me a favor and cleaned my room while i was gone. And when i say she cleaned my room, she rearranged EVERYTHING and went threw alll of my shit.

My mom still thinks i'm a virgin. I've always lied to her when she asks because when i was a kid and we'd have those talks..she litterally instilled the fear in me that she'd basically hate me if i had sex before marrage. She told me if i got pregnant that she'd kick me out, etc etc. So even now that she tells me she won't be mad at me and that she wants me to feel like i can talk to her, it's just tatooed in my head that i just can't tell her. It's like trying to tell a racist that blacks are not that bad.

I guess since this is the first time i was going to be staying with a boy, at least the first time she knows about, she thought it would be good to have a talk with me about all that stuff and i again assured her i hadn't had sex yet blah blah.

So when i got home about 2 hours ago, to my horror, my whole room is cleaned out. My closet, my desk drawers, everything was cleaned out and organized. My condoms, my vibrator, an old birth control pack, this vibrator ring thing that you put on a guys dick, all of it found.

So now i'm just waiting for my mom to get home and for the akwardness to ensue..

I guess in a way i'm kinda glad. I've always wanted her to know, i just never wanted to tell her. And even though this is possibly the most akward way for her to find out..minus her actually catching me in the act, at least she knows..and i don't think she'll be mad, just mad that i had always lied to her.

Well wish me luck everyone..the cats out of the bag.